i wanna bake a lava cake lyk this..

hope i can :p

and i wanna give it to him :))

sweet;)

monday january 31.


i buy new maong jeans for myself :)
waaahhh.!! ubos n agad ang san linggong alowwance :P
sad face talaga.!! :((


pero i lyk it nman hahaha
so aus lang un :)

January 30. sunday..

bored lang sa bahay.!!

we supposed to be in baguio na.!

waaahhh.!!!bakeeeeeeeetttt kseeee.!!!!!!

but dadus promised to me\

next week we will go to baguio..

so hell yeah feel better.!

sana matuloy na.!!!

saturday :) january 29

we supposed to go to BAGUIO

but inay she back up.!

god.! i feel upset.!

i'm soo excited but then ouch.!!

ang KJ ng inay.. bakeeettttttt.!!!

NAKAKA ASAR NG LUBHA.!!

so many things to blog :)

lets start last friday :)

rj visite me :))

and i'm sooo freaking shocks..

he's way better than last yr :p

hahaha loving his new look w/ his long hair..

although its a litlle mess :p

i made him wait for me.. hahaha

i enjoyed the whole day with him..

and i know i'm gonna miss it a LOT.!

the jacket is my xmas and 8th months gift for him :)

i spent too much for this hahaha..

pero aus lang coz.. i know hr really lyk it :)

while blogging this..

i realize i really do love him :))

luvyu so much john raven <3

i wanna see the sunset w/ him ;)

ahhh.. looking forward for this .

i lubyu so much babe..

i misyu so bad ;|

i've almost forgot my

 blog :)

watched tangled with tine ;)

i love the story and the whole movie ;)

i wanna watch it w/ rj ♥♥

last friday was super fun :)

with mah' bff tine..

pasenxa n hindi ku mabaliktad ung ibang pics :))



at napaiyak ku n nman siya..

and it feeks lyk..

huuuuaaaatt.! wala nman xang ginagawang msama..

O.A lang tlaga aku apg nmimis ku xa ng sobra.!

guilty much ;| i'm sorry babe.mwaaapph.

I dunno why i'm not in the mood to talk to my babe and

that makes him feel bad ;( 

awwee.!soory.!! 

maybe because he;s too busy and he's not txting me..

hump.. hate being lyk

this.!

siomai XD

me,and inay and kua rjohn cooked siomai :)

and it taste good hahaha

so probably there would be a next time ;))

i really miss my babe and that make

 me feel bad.. i wanna hug him
 too

bad i just cant :|

this is what we do when we miss each other :)

WEBCAM!

kahit panu aus din hahaha.. :)

it feels bad :|

i dont know why everytym thst i hear his mom voice

i cant help being  scared??

i know its kinda weired but its true O.O

last nyt  rj and her mom was talking

and i have a chance to hear their conversation

cause i'm just on the next line..

and their stories goes

then i hear his mom saying these words

"mali ung kwento ni jovelle"

" e ikaw e naniwala k sa babaeng un"

i know i'm wrong but hearing those words with that tone 

of speaking..

probably it really affects me a

LOT!! :|

i dont know why but it really affects me :|

i just cant help saying sorry.sorry even

though i know they cant hear me..

and

maybe because the person who i though

will lift me up.. or just say that it is not my fault

didn't do anything AGAIN!! 

and it hurts me a

lot more than anything

i feel pity for my self.!!

poor me. (T.T)

too bad i dont have a chance to speak and to explaine it. :|

hope i can get trough with this mess.!!

haist..

i really feel bad.!

and oh BTW!!

yeah i've cried .!!

cause' i feel down..

oh pity me :|

fau A.K.A #3

she's FAULINE DIANE BONDUQUIN FAJARDO.

i call her #3 :P

my boyfie's ex girfriend .. 

last nyt me and rj are talking on the phone..

i ask him to tell me some story about thist freaking girl..

i dunno whats came in my mind and why suddenly i wanna hear 

something about his past.

and then raven my bf told me their stories ..

he told me how special fau is..

back in their js in high skul she make a song request for fau :(

too bad he didnt do it for me..:|

i dunno why suddenly i feel sad .:|

maybe because she love some girl b4 me and that made me feel bad..

sana aku lang un minahal nia..

para everytime that i will ask him to tell me some stories
it will be al about me.!

ONLY ME.!

but as they say we can never change whats already happen.. :|

why i am saying this??

insicure??

 nahh!! no need..

i know i'm supah better than him..

i love my bf way better than her.!

i treasure him not lyk what she've done.!

jealous??

probably not.!!

awwe.! i shouldn't have to :)

cauze' lyk what i've said..

im soooooooo better than her.!!

and my boyfie love me way better than her!

so why should i?? :)

thats how confident  am that my boyfie love me

more than he love her.!

so why i am writing this stupid post on my blog??

nothing.!! 

couse this is super nonsense.!! :)

so fauline diane fajardo.!

sshhhooouu.! get lost.!!

joke .. enjoy ur lyf w/o the shadow of my 

FUTURE HUSBAND!!

awwwee.!too bitch!

Happy Fiesta Bagong Silang :)

ssoo excited to blog what happen last nyt.

we had so much fun..

cant wait to upload our "worst pictures"

hahaha..

ouch :|

ouch :|

i hurt him coz' of this word .. :|


"tukmol" i feel bad :(


i dunno why??


he told me "aus lang un"


but i kow he just dont wanna hurt me. :|


hope this wont happen again 


i swear.!!

last nyt sucks.!

i spend too much tears last nyt...

i dunno why?? maybe because it hurts??

haist.. i really cant accept the fact that

they dont lyk me .. :(

it relly hurt too much.. :|

he's new song .. :)

Now and Forever

Whenever I'm weary from the battles that rage 

in my head 

You make sense of madness when my sanity 

hangs by a thread 

I lose my way but still you seam to understand 

Now and forever 

I will be your man 

Sometimes I just hold you 

Too caught up in me to see 

I'm holding a fortune that heaven has given 

to me 

I'll try to show you each and every way I can 

Now and forever 

I will be you man 

Now I can rest my worries and always be sure 

That I won't be alone anymore 

If I'd only known you were there all the @me 

All this time 

Until the day the ocean doesn't touch the 

sand 

Now and forever 

I will be your man 

Now and forever 

I will be your man 

this is his new song dedicated to me :)

he told me not to download this song..

 couz' he' will sing this to me personally when we met..

but i cant wait to hear it na..

sooo yeeaaahh.! i've already download it and put it on my phoe.. :)

too bad i broke my promise.. :|

i wonder how will he react for it..

soory babe..

i just cant wait.. :P

do we fyt??

yes but not that serious like other

couple do .. and thats one thing why do i hate him.!

masyado siyang mabaet :| 

un tipong naabuso kuna minsan .

do i love him??

YES!

super.. i am willing to give him everything he wants..

i can be watever he wants me to be..

i can change who i am..

just to make him happy..

and contented to me..

do i miss him??

super yes .. :|

being far away from him make me feel

miserable.i want to hug him but i cant :(

i wanna kiss him but i cant. :(

couz' he was so far..

i dont know why i commited myself to him..

WHY??

he;s changing me..

he always make me wait for him...

w/c one thing i do hate WAITING! urg.!

( i do not have patience )

but he good thing is.. i; willing to change..

i'm happy when i'm with him..

he make me feel like i'm soo special..

he love me..

its just that he was soo kind.!

w/c is 1 thing i want him to change..

nkakaumay kse minsan.. sa sobrang pgiging mabaet nia

nkakawalang gana ung relationship nmin
like pag ng aaway kme..

plage n lang aku ung tama khit hindi nman..

plage n lang aku ung pinagbibigyan..

the thing is he doesn't know how it affects me.!

and it really makes me feel bad.!

and now i'm confused??
what will i do..
i wanna save our relationship 
should i continue our relationship..
marami n kung nsacrifice at gnun din xa..
pero minsan kse parang it is better kng mghihiwalay kme..
to make things better.

i;m soo confused.!

i dont wanna loose him

i really love him so much..

what will i do????

KLOIS N' KLAYS :)



i BADLY want these stuff..!!

there were soooo cute..:p

hope i can have these stuff.. :((

missing him :|

as always nmi2s ku n nman sya.. :| 

bkit b kse kelangan mgkalau kme.. ??

why??why??whhhhhhhhhhhhhyyy??????

All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop
Oh baby, tell me why’d you have to go
‘Cause this pain I feel it won’t go away
And today I’m officially missin’ you

I thought that from this heartache, I could escape
But I’ve fronted long enough to know
There ain’t no way
And today I’m officially missing you

Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I’m officially...


All I do is lay around, 2 years full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don’t even know you at all, I don’t know you at
all

Well, I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it’s safe to say, baby, safe to say
that I-I’m officially missin’ you


Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mid
And I-I’m officially


Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby
But I see there’s something I just can’t do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can’t find a way to let go of you


Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I’m officially...


It’s official
Hoo, you know that I’m missin’ you, yeah, yes
All I hear is raindrops, oh, yeah
And I-I’m officially missin’ you

:| misyu so much

john raven tolentino matibag

my new blog.. :)

i forgot the password of my old blog 

so i created a new blog.. yeah.. :D

hahaha..